Global Warming

So I watched "The Age of Stupid" last night. It brought tears to my eyes. To see how selfish and corrupt the people on this planet are made me sick. To know that people all over the world are suffering and dying because of our greed for oil...it makes me so sick... I mean we are going to eventually run out of oil. What then? Not to mention if we keep using oil we are going to kill the planet. How can people be so cruel? How can someone sit there knowing they are killing thousands of people in Nigeria for a quick buck? WHY ARE PEOPLE NOT WAKING UP TO THIS CRISIS YET???
PEOPLE WAKE UP PLEASE:
Stop using so much plastic...no more plastic bags...get reusable ones and use them!
No more water in bottles... What the hell is that anyway? It comes from a TAP you know.
If you need to travel for a short distance...WALK! its better for you anyways
Don't use unnecessary energy if you don't have to.
WE NEED to PROTEST. WE NEED TO FIGHT. WE DON'T HAVE LOTS OF TIME.
we have another 5 years to turn things around or it will be too late.

Love is on Fire

OK, so Saturday, after my accident, I decided not to let it beat me and still go out and enjoy my night. Me, Chris and Darrell went to the Coors Light Maxim party at the Commodore. It was fun and it was awesome to be around some old friends. It was fun. Sunday I woke up with the accident still on my mind but then I decided....what the hell am I doing? So I left and went to go pick up Kristen and go to a photo shoot on the beach in Vancouver. Then we did the rest of the photo shoot at Adam's house. (our producer) It was hot but I'll leave those details out for now. Lets just say as each day goes by I am getting more and more comfortable with myself and my body. Monday we we went to Vancouver to mix beats and figure out the lyrics to the song we are recording tonight. Yesterday me and Kristen worked with Cleo out in Van and then had another bikini photo shoot at Third Beach in Stanley Park. I realized I need try to work on my expressions and body language some more. Well that's all for now. Just wanted a quick update.
P.S. I'm super worried about my girl. If she goes to jail...I'm gonna cry for way to long... and I will be so lost... She's my pillar. :(

Problems, Problems

Problems come and problems go.
Today a problem came. I smashed up someones car. Pretty dumb move but it was a complete accident. Now, I sat in my bed crying for a couple of hours, thinking my summer is going to be ruined. I figured since I have to cancel my vacation now, I shouldn't be allowed to feel happy or have fun. After the couple of hours of feeling hopeless and depressed, I got out of bed and sat up. I looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself: "Why are you like this? Why are you letting this get to you so much? So what we are in bad economic times... So what you don't have the money to pay for the damage? So what? That is not a reason why you should stop living your life!"
I then just started doing my makeup and straightening my hair not knowing why. I told myself I am not going to let this bad experience ruin my night, my summer or my life. I just need to learn from it. Now I am going to be much more careful backing up. And yes I have to cancel my vacation but maybe it was all for a reason. Maybe it saved me from something worse. And maybe this way I will be more motivated to work towards a Hawaii vacation in the winter. As for the 4 grand I owe now... the universe will help me if I keep strong. It will show me the way. An opportunity is going to come my way. I know it. I just need to keep in a resourceful state.

Goodnight world.

Here Again

So I am here again, inspired again, hurt again, but overall, ALIVE again. This summer has put some things into perspective for me:
Everyone has secrets and insecurities.
Everyone feels pain. Everyone has unresolved issues.
But we cannot treat them as excuses.
We cannot let our pasts guide our futures. We are NOT allowed to take bad experiences and turn them into reasons for unhappiness. We were made to endure. That's what human life is about after all. We need to look at the beauty in everything. No regrets!
I have a challenge. Think of a time when you were really upset. Now visualize being strong and smiling about what happened. Stand up straight, throw your shoulders back, look up and smile. See the picture of the bad memory fade further and further away and you standing strong becoming brighter and closer. How does that make you feel? Better? That's what I thought.

I just have one message today:
Pain is inevitable. Hurt is everywhere. Broken trust is common. DO NOT let that rule your life. DO NOT let that guide your actions or limit your possibilities for happiness. Remember, what doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger. (if you let it)